Adenomyosis/Endometriosis & Chronic Pain, Endometriosis, Health Care, Parenting

Please don’t Endo our friendship 

Hi all,

I would like to make an apology in advance. These are the things I’ve been doing of late, and will probably continue to do so for the foreseeable;

Occasionally cancel my plans with friends.

Miss calls throughout the day.

Take a few days to reply to messages.

Pay for my expensive gym membership but rarely go.

On particularly bad days, I will struggle to get out the house.

Believe me when I say that it’s not my intention to do any of the aforementioned, and before my friends and family start to worry, I’m not suffering from any anxious or depressive episodes (I have been prone to these throughout my life). However, it’s becoming increasingly clear that my chronic gynaecological problem will not fuck off, not even a little bit, and as predicted by my specialist, it’s slowly getting much more painful.

Sure, I can have a hysterectomy sooner rather than later; they’ve already said I will undoubtedly be having it in my 30’s anyway. There’s just one slight issue for me; I truly believe becoming a mother is the most gratifying and precious moment in my life. My world is consumed with the little family my husband and I created. So please forgive me for wanting to try to add to it. My want for a baby is becoming desperate and I’m at the stage where my heart physically aches. Not to mention how often my eyes cry for the multiple negative pregnancy tests they read.

Please don’t feel sorry for me, that’s not what this message is about. I understand how lucky I am to have one child and I also realise that although my condition is chronic and relentlessly painful, there are so many destructive and life limiting illnesses and diseases in the world which I’m fortunate not to suffer from.

But this is my reality and my pain can be very debilitating. So, again, sorry to my nearest and dearest if I have let you down or will disappoint in the future. I’m not avoiding you, and I love you dearly. But when, most days, you’re only just managing to keep your shit together; sometimes people around have to take a back seat.

Now pass me the pain killers and let’s try and push through this.

Holly xx

#Endometriosis #PelvicAdhesions #PelvicPain #Gynae

5 thoughts on “Please don’t Endo our friendship ”

  1. I know exactly how you feel. It’s not easy cancelling plans or always being the friend who never follows through. It’s hard for others to understand what we go through every day – but we learn to lean on ourselves I guess. I don’t know what routes you have taken to manage your pain, but a good acupuncturist has lessened mine tremendously. If you haven’t tried that yet, it might help you out too. Sending hugs

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    1. I must admit, I haven’t tried acupuncture for my endo, but have tried it for a separate condition years ago and found it worked well.

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      1. Definitely something to look into again. I’ve found reflexology has helped my last few flare ups too x

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      2. You must give it a try. But it can take a few times to find a good doctor. I went through several acupuncturists who did not help the way this one does. They need to truly care and spend more time than just 30 minutes. I’ve been going for 8 months now and I honestly can’t imagine stopping. It is apart of life for me. When my symptoms got severe last year, I could barely walk every single day. After a few treatments I was able to go for walks again without feeling like my organs were going to fall out!

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